very long rant coming your way
October 1st not only marks the first day of the best month ever, but it also marks the startup date of my tanning membership!
WOOOOT! PRAISE THE LORD EVERYBODY!
I feel like I’m always available for my friends. Whether they need someone to hangout with, a shoulder to cry on, a ride somewhere, anything. I’m always there for the people I care about.
One of my best friends started seeing someone she barely knows. I found out this boy used to work with me and my friend asked me to find out whatever I could about said boy. While I never got around to learning much about him, I did hear a few things which made me feel uneasy about her spending so much time with him without her being aware of the truth.
The topic came up today while we were chatting and I told her I did what she asked and found out a bit about the boy. I told her what I heard and she started freaking out on me. I felt terrible for ever saying anything and right away began reassuring her that everything is fine. That didn’t work either.
Anything I said or did made her more and more upset and mad at me. She thinks i’m jealous that she has a boyfriend and I don’t. Woah woah woah, not the case at all. All I want is for my friends and I to be happy. Having a boyfriend has nothing to do with it. I understand she doesn’t want people getting involved in her personal life and I respect that. I would never gotten involved unless she asked me to, which she did.
Anyways I feel terrible that I bothered my friend this much. She means the world to me. I hope theres something that will make her realize I was not trying to hurt her, that I’m looking out for her and respect her privacy. It doesn’t feel right to be scared of someone I care about right now. Why must girls be so complicated and hurtful?
Anyways, hopefully she snaps out of it and realizes I was not trying to hurt her at all. Rant over. Have a good day my lovelies. xox Dream big always!
It’s so crazy to me how one little thing can set me off and change my mood for the day.
I could definitely pretend like I don’t feel shitty tonight, but I do. Even though it’s not always fun, I try to stay true to my emotions and not lie to myself about how I feel.
Maybe I’m paranoid and making things up in my head, but either way I hate feeling this way. Tomorrow is a new day and I will make the best of it. No more feeling sorry for myself and always be positive and thankful for the life that I have.
I’m a weirdo magnet
I’m the most embarrassing and awkward person. Ever.
I’m so caught up at work I often seem to be oblivious of what’s going on around me. I was working a serving shift at the restaurant tonight and I was serving a table of drunk guys who kept hitting on me. They were definitely much older than me and they were definitely drunk. They weren’t being rude, they were actually pretty funny but I was so oblivious for a few hours that they were hitting on me. I never think people are hitting on me I always assume they’re being friendly and/or creepy.
One of the guys at the table handed me over a audi business card and said “If you want to buy an audi, call me.” I then responded “you sell audis?” Omfg. Obviously NOT! He just wrote his number on whatever he could find. I only noticed his number on it hours later. LOL I’m so dumb.
I mean, I’m not going to text him or anything, I just couldn’t believe how dumb I was to the whole situation.
Another guy whom I served tonight at the restaurant has been coming around the street I work on all week and he actually came for a beer at the restaurant today and sat at my table. He was so creepy to me. He drove a sweet mustang but he has meth teeth. No thanks. After ordering a beer he followed me into the restaurant (he was sitting at a table on the patio) and asked me for my number.
First of all, you don’t even know my name. Second, you have been nothing but creepy to me, and third you have meth teeth. Bye. He then tipped me 6$ on a beer. Wow… such a balla!
It’s so different today then it was a year ago for me. A year ago I was in the homeland and my life change completely. I connected to something while I was there but I also disconnected from something I had back home.
I was depressed, scared, confused, mad, jealous, and more. I thought I wouldn’t be able to survive a full year. But here I am. Stronger than ever. Happier than ever, healthier, richer, wiser. I’m so thankful I was able to finally get myself into a positive lifestyle. I hope this positivity continues to grow within me for the rest of my life.
Other than that, I’m going to watch Curb Your Enthusiasm and eat some zzaaaaa!
Stay golden pony boy.
when girls press their whole body against you when they hug, it means they like you a lot. also, they’re measuring your body to determine how long it will take them to eat your flesh, a technique shared by boa constrictors